What Happened To All My Old Content?
What’s up guys, Eddie Fews here. About a year and a half ago I made the decision to delete all of the content from my website. I also decided to delete and recreate my Youtube channel, and to also delete all of my social media, and start everything over again. That includes the classes I created, the books I wrote, and any other paid content I had made up until that point.
Several people were caught off guard at the time and couldn’t understand how I could just wake up one morning and decide to delete everything. It appeared random. Some thought I had been hacked, a few were saddened, and others complained(some more than that). And I’d like to think I completely understand, however, it wasn’t a decision I was making to do anyone harm, it was a decision for the greater good. I became convicted about the content that I was making, the image I was representing, and how all of that could negatively influence others. From teaching about Pick Up Artistry, to Social Development, to Red Pill – Alpha Male Dynamics, To New Age Metaphysics, to Attracting and Building Wealth secrets… it was all worthless.
Sure a few guys grew in confidence, some found the girl for them, and others were able to make a few bucks, but what does any of that matter when all this is over?
Mark 8:36 “For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?”
Jesus told a parable in Luke 12:16-21 about a rich man who reaped an abundant harvest so much so that he had no place to store it all. He decided to tear down his barns and build bigger ones to store all he had without realizing that the very night he planned those things his life would be demanded of him.
What good are riches, what good is status, and respect if a man no longer has his life? What use does a dead man have with money, wives, or any of the pleasures of the world? No one knows which day will be theirs, and if we’re not prepared whenever that is, not a thing we ever loved or enjoyed about this world is going to matter.
I deleted all old my content because the lifestyle I was living, representing, and selling to others was nothing more than a temporary veil to keep people from seeing what was to come. Pleasure, money, and admiration can blind the hearts of men from realizing what’s truly important. We can live this life fast, partying, and chasing cheap pleasures but there’s going to be a judgment and everything is going to have to be accounted for.
I left my old life and decided to follow Jesus Christ on July 27 2021 and it was the best decision I ever made. I had just arrived at this high-rise apartment I would rent out temporarily to spend time with the women I was entertaining at the time when I began to feel this tug on my heart that it was time to change my life.
Just a few weeks prior I began to question whether premarital sex(fornication) is actually a sin or not. In my ignorance, I couldn’t understand what was wrong with it. Was anybody harmed? I was just having fun, and I tried to be helpful to some of the women if I could. But still, it began to weigh on me. I would lay down with a woman then get up to shower and pray that God forgives me “IF” I was doing something wrong. I did this for a few weeks until one day in the middle of my normal “God forgive me If I’m wrong” prayer it seemed like I heard a strong internal voice say to me “Are you trying to mock me?” Was I making a mockery of prayer and repentance by acting carelessly only to ask for forgiveness as if that would be the bandage on my sin in the event that I did actually sin? I absolutely was.
If I was sincere I would have prayed “God I don’t know if this is a sin or not so I’m just not going to do it until you confirm to me whether or not it’s okay because I don’t want to sin before you.” I wouldn’t just do what I wanted and asked God to bandage me as if it was no big deal. Nevertheless, I heard this voice, I was frightened and convicted, however, that wasn’t yet enough. I still continued in my behavior shortly after by convincing myself I didn’t really hear any internal voice.
Shortly after I ran into a friend of mine at the time who told me he has been celibate for I believe 2 years and he was explaining how much it’s changed his life. He also shared with me a book he read that helped him make that decision. I read the book and it help a bit and made a lot of sense, however, I still continued in my behavior.
A few more things happened after, that were adding to the building up of me realizing that I should make some changes, but again I still continued in my behavior.
And then it was July 27th 2021 and I was in a GrabCar(Asia’s Uber), going from my main apartment to the temporary one planning to meet up with a young lady who ironically enough had also recently accepted Jesus Christ as her Lord and Savior. I had accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord in Savior a little over year prior to this and I was praying consistently thinking I was saved. (I grew up reading the Bible, going to church and learning about Jesus, however, It never quite “worked for me”. I wouldn’t say I strayed too far from the foundation, but I was dabbling in other things thinking I was on this quest for the truth. Nevertheless, I wasn’t saved, I hadn’t fully believed in my heart, I hadn’t fully surrendered my life, and turned from my sin)
I arrive at the apartment and my heart was heavy, it was like I was feeling a call to make a change in my life. While overlooking the city from the balcony I went and grabbed my bag and pulled out my notebook that contained my life plans and the goals that I wanted to accomplish. I had been carrying that book with me everywhere for the last 3 or 4 years, I took it very seriously and the things in the book were coming true day by day year by year. I believed at that time that as long as I held onto that book, eventually, it was all going to come true. However on this day, in my conviction, by the pull I felt on my heart, I was ready to make a change… I began ripping out the pages of the book, I then place them into the aluminum non-stick bowl in the rice cooker at the apartment, placed it on the balcony of the high-rise, and I set it on fire…
I prayed “God, I don’t want this book, I don’t want whatever plans I have for myself, I want the plan that you have for my life.“
I was watching the book burn, and the ashes fly over the city from my balcony when my guest arrived. She came in wondering why the apartment smelled like smoke, shocked to see I was burning my book of goals & plans. I informed her that I was changing my life, and although I was not fully sure what that would look like, I was going to commit my life to God.
We continued to talk, we ate, and while eating I began to notice certain a trait in her that I pointed out that I believed was hyper-selfish. While we were eating I knocked a glass of water down that spilled on me and the floor and she didn’t flinch, I went to grab napkins to begin to clean up the mess, and still, she didn’t flinch, she just kept eating, looking straight ahead, like nothing had happened.
I was shocked. I explained to her that I think it’s normal that if you’re with someone and something spills that you offer to help or at least make a comment asking if they would like help. The behavior seemed very cold and selfish. Yet to my surprise, she agreed and told me that people tell her that all the time, but that she has no idea what to do about it, and it bothers her that she is that way. I understood and decided we should pray about it after we finished eating.
We prayed and in chilling fashion, the spirit that was behind that type of behavior in her began to speak out of her mouth and explain that it was a demon of selfishness that keeps her in bondage to that type of selfish behavior which is why she couldn’t control it or understand why she does it. I began rebuking it and telling it to come out of her, and eventually, she vomited on the floor and the spirit left her. When she returned to consciousness I asked her if she knows what just happened to which she replied “No.” And I explained to her what happened and that she was now free from that thing.
The following day we were still hanging out and she revealed to me that she lied to me, that she was semi-conscious of what was happening the night before, and that she did in fact know what was going on. I asked her why did she lie, and again she says “I don’t know.” She doesn’t know why she just lies sometimes. This sounded like the same thing she said the day before about selfishness so I decided we should pray again about the lies. And in a similar fashion to the day before the spirit behind her lying began to speak out from her, telling me it makes her lie and also revealing its name. Then to my surprise 4 other spirits each one by one spoke out from her, telling me about their job in her life and also revealing their names. Jealousy, Pain(reminds her of painful memories to make her cry), Lying, and one that was connected to Idolatry(For she looked up to these social media influencers), I began telling them to come out in the name of Jesus and eventually she vomited 4 or 5 individual times right on the floor and each one came out of her.
At this point I was a bit startled by what was happening. I had some experiences similar to this before(which is how I fully believed in my heart that Jesus Is Lord, but that’s another story for another day), but it had been a while and this one was a little different.
Anyway, we began talking and then we prayed again, and once more, one more spirit began to speak through her again. I asked it how it came into her and it said “Because her mother keeps sleeping with men and she’s not married.”
BOOM!
That was my confirmation about my own sin. The spirit came into this girl when she was young by way of her mother’s sins, by no sin of her own. The sins of the parents can fall on the children if they are not covered by the grace of Jesus Christ. I knew at that moment, that I was going to stop fornication. How could a Father claim to love his own child if he’s doing things for his pleasure that are harming them?
So I began to drive the spirit out however, this one was refusing to leave. Even after pushing, and rebuking, over and over again, it was refusing to leave.
And you know why?
After a bit of time of calling it out, telling it to leave, and binding it, it turned to me and said “Do you know why I won’t leave?”.. “If you want me to come out of her, you have to get my friend that’s in you out of you first. When my friend comes out of you, then I’ll come out of her”
I said “ What are you talking about?!”. It replied “ Pride. You have my friend Pride in you.”
I was shocked, however, I knew that pride had been an issue for me all throughout life so I couldn’t deny it.
I took a break from the prayer, I went to process what I had just heard, and eventually, I fell asleep.
The next morning I felt deeper conviction for my sins, my fornication, my pride, and others, and I got on my face on the floor and began crying out to God in the name of Jesus with a snotty nose, and eyes filled with tears, begging for mercy and repenting for all my sins.
During the process, I also began to vomit. I was praying and vomiting over and over again on the floor for at least an hour. Some brown fluid was coming out of my gut and I don’t know what it was. The floor was soaked in this stuff, and after cleaning it up, I sat up on the bed, with a face full of tears, grieving and shocked by how ignorant I was and how deceived I was to think that fornication was not a sin.
I got down and prayed again and vomited a little more, and when I got up off the floor my taste for fornication, drinking to get drunk, pride, greed, and more were gone. I felt cleansed from those desires and no longer wanted anything to do with those things.
I went downstairs where the friend of mine was and said “ I think I have to delete my YouTube channel” to which she said “ I felt like I heard something tell me the exact same thing, but I was afraid to tell you.”
I opened my laptop, pulled up my Youtube channel, and thought about it for a half of a second, and then hit “DELETE”. Gone. Just like that. Almost 20,000 Subs down the drain. I followed this up by cleaning up other areas of my life and deleting all the photos of the lifestyle that I was living. I no longer wanted anything to do with the old man(Romans 6:6). I was ready to walk in the newness of life.
I continued to clean up more areas of my life, from social media, self-help books, and more. Learning to trust in the plan that God has for my life.
I know this story was a bit long, but if you’re still reading this I want you to know that God loves you. He loves you individually. The Bible says he has the hairs on your head numbered(Luke 12:7). He loves you more than you love yourself and more than you love anyone. When we turn from sin which separates us from God, and tap in to the love which we access through Jesus Christ his only begotten son, it will fill things in us that fornication, drinking, and our individual adventures never could.
That emptiness that men feel that we try to fill up with our selfish ambitions and every and anything else is a void from us not being connected to and not in fellowship with our creator. The things that I thought were me(the way I walked, the way I talked, and the things I enjoyed), I discovered were not me at all. It was the evil that was in me, that got delivered me from through Jesus Christ.
I walk differently now, I talk differently, and I think differently by the Grace of God in Christ Jesus. I’m fulfilled. I experience true joy, true love, and true peace from my Eternal Father in Heaven.
The Father, The God of All Creation loves you, and he sent his son to die for your sins so that through him you can be cleansed of your sin, and reconciled to your Father in Heaven. This isn’t just my experience, this is available for anyone who believes. The Bible says everyone who calls on the name of Jesus will be saved.
Jesus is the son of God, he is the way, the truth, and the life, and NO ONE can come to God unless they go through Jesus. If you’ve been looking for God and you haven’t found him, it’s likely because you haven’t sincerely called on the name of the Lord Jesus. Call on his name, repent of your sins, and ask to be reconciled to the Father through him.
If you want freedom, true peace, and true love you can have it. It’s all in Jesus.
Romans 10:9-13 – ; because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. For the Scripture says, “Everyone who believes in him will not be put to shame.” For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, bestowing his riches on all who call on him. For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.””
Thank you all for reading.
There will be more of my story to come.
Peace to you all who are in Christ Jesus.
Eddie Fews
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